As I read Simone's blog post and look next to me at Ryan who is furiously typing away I wonder why I wrote so little. My reading made me so frustrated and a little hopeless for the future, but all I could get out of myself is a measly little paragraph... I now wonder am I really that pathetic. I feel so confused sometimes when I sit down to write for an assignment that I lose my train of thought and just completely forget what I was about to say, like, fifteen minutes ago. I don't really know what to think about myself or even what to do to fix this rarely occurring problem. I love to write and writing about controversial issues is my specialty but I just don't have it in me to, I dunno, bash my chosen career more than I already did in my assignment post. I guess I feel a little hopeless more and more as I realize that things I want to do when I "grow up" are becoming more and more idiotic (or useless like journalism) as the years pass. Am I going to be one of those out of work college students that we talked about in class? Will someone want to hire a inexperienced little punk like me... I doubt it. Is everything that I have aspired for in the last few years going to blow up in my face like everything else does? I sure hope not because after the hell of the last two year I don't think I could take another major let down. After being told for two years by a complete idiot that I was worth less than shit I think I need a little bright outlook on life, don't you? I guess I just have really bad luck or maybe karma is having it's way with me... I don't know but whatever happens I guess I will always be that little ray of sunshine for everyone else while my life is falling to pieces around me.
Monday, January 26, 2009
Am I really that pathetic? I can't write a decent blog post over something I am pasionate about?
Posted by That Spooky Chick at 10:04 PM
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You are my ray of sunshine, and I hope to be your mirror. Just so I can give a little back to all you find in me.
Passion takes practice on paper. We might even have the passion, sometimes we need to first hone it...Why am I blogging this when you are right next to me?
Aw, Ryan. ^.^ How sweet!
Shelley, don't feel bad about completely forgetting what you wanted to write. I do that all the time. It's totally lame but it happens. You've just got to see that and deal with it. Anytime that I have a great idea and can't get to any type of writing instrument, I just repeat it in my head over and over until I can get it down. I also totally agree with Ryan that putting passion on paper takes practice. As much as I hate to say it, sometimes it can't just be writing whatever falls off the edge of your brain (Though, some of that is really good to read.). Proofreading may be hell, but it works. Also, let other people read your stuff. They catch things that you don't even know you put in there.
I hope a bit of this helped. Oh, and, you're also a ray of sunshine to me! ^.^
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