Am I really that pathetic? I can't write a decent blog post over something I am pasionate about?

As I read Simone's blog post and look next to me at Ryan who is furiously typing away I wonder why I wrote so little. My reading made me so frustrated and a little hopeless for the future, but all I could get out of myself is a measly little paragraph... I now wonder am I really that pathetic. I feel so confused sometimes when I sit down to write for an assignment that I lose my train of thought and just completely forget what I was about to say, like, fifteen minutes ago. I don't really know what to think about myself or even what to do to fix this rarely occurring problem. I love to write and writing about controversial issues is my specialty but I just don't have it in me to, I dunno, bash my chosen career more than I already did in my assignment post. I guess I feel a little hopeless more and more as I realize that things I want to do when I "grow up" are becoming more and more idiotic (or useless like journalism) as the years pass. Am I going to be one of those out of work college students that we talked about in class? Will someone want to hire a inexperienced little punk like me... I doubt it. Is everything that I have aspired for in the last few years going to blow up in my face like everything else does? I sure hope not because after the hell of the last two year I don't think I could take another major let down. After being told for two years by a complete idiot that I was worth less than shit I think I need a little bright outlook on life, don't you? I guess I just have really bad luck or maybe karma is having it's way with me... I don't know but whatever happens I guess I will always be that little ray of sunshine for everyone else while my life is falling to pieces around me.

Secondary education has masive problems in my eyes.

As I was was reading the Sizer section in Reading Culture I could not help but think that the section was extremely boring and drawn out. Who cares what some snot nosed kid thinks about some little assembly? I am sure that no one does. Also a normal high school day does not include an assembly or anything of the sort. This section goes on to prove that the secondary education is one of the most backwards things ever. I may sound childish or whatever but this is effecting the children that are being taught. When kids are being taught straight from a book like in the "No Child Left Behind" system that we are actually discouraging them form paying attention or even trying to learn. And that system is discouraging promising people from becoming teachers. Who wants to teach straight from a book; where's the fun in that? I hate the fact that this reading felt like a waste of time to me. All I had to do was look back into the not so distant past and see the all of the things being pointed out to me. I give the reading a 1 out of 5...

Well, well, well... It's an introduction.

Why 'ello,

I am in the process of introducing myself(this blog and all) to the masses. I have never really had a "blog" that people kept up with or posted on. I have went throgh the whole Xanga thing and learned how to make things pretty so this should be fun. It is much easier for me to SHOW people about myself through pictures than to simply tell facts with bland speech.

I hope that no meaning has been lost in that little block of words up there.

More for you soon,
Spooky